Finally, my final treatment is complete and the tube is removed! Before, I thought I would be excited to get to this day but when I actually got everything unhooked, I felt fairly neutral. I think it is because the final closure on this challenge hasn't been confirmed yet. Regardless, I am happy that I don't have chemo treatments and that I can finally focus on the recovery. I am definitely pretty beat this round as much as last few rounds of treatment. I am trying very hard to rest as much as possible because I want to try to attend Phil's cousin wedding ceremony next Saturday. I won't be able to attend the dinner reception but at least I hope to be there to see them get married. Also, I want to see my in-laws that I haven't seen in ages, would be good to be out for a bit.
Looking back at the past few weeks and months, my parents have totally stepped up above and beyond the call. Especially in the past week or so. We have landscaper coming in to do work but a lot had to be managed and I don't have the energy to take care of it. Also, Phil is at work and can only contribute so much. My parents are crazy hard workers... helping us maintain our lawn, digging out weeds on a weekly basis, watering my edible garden, constantly cleaning and fixing my house, cooking many meals throughout the day, working their other job, managing the landscapers work to make sure they are doing things appropriately, running in and out buying stuff for this project etc.... last night, my dad and Phil were out so late fixing this conduit pipe for future lighting installation, they are so exhausted and tired from all the digging and installation. Phil took a 4 hrs nap yesterday while my parents were still out and about doing stuff so that Phil and I can rest! I'm so glad that my parents are very well rounded people and know how to take care so much stuff. As much as I want to rely on my husband only, his knowledge on how things are done (especially with the house), and his time are very limited. Can't blame him for not knowing because he didn't grow up with anyone showing him how to do it. With not much guidance and lead, how can I expect him to know it right? I don't know many parents who are like mine who know so much and can do so much for their age. Although the past months have been SO STRESSFUL, and we all have gone into many fights and arguments with my parents due to personality and mindset clashes, both my husband and I still feel very blessed and lucky to have them with us, helping us during this time because at the end of the day, they both work over 14 hours a day taking care of all errands making our lives easier for the present and future.
August is a crazy busy month... so much is going on. I can't believe it is August already. I just really want summer to last longer so that I can enjoy it. This month is busy because so much needs to be completed before Fall including our landscaping project. Everything is so dusty and my parents are constantly cleaning the house throughout the day from outside entrance to the inside of the house. Our new home Tarion warranty is around the corner so we need to walk around the house to see what needs to be fixed and tell the builder before the end of the month. I already scheduled the nail pop dry wall guy to come and fix touch up any areas in the house in the coming week. Once the landscaping is done, we need to wash all of our windows (inside and out)! I need to schedule the duct cleaners sometime in September to come and do a thorough clean-up! We have so much stuff in our basement that Phil and I been talking about doing a good clean-out! Since our move, we have so many boxes of STUFF that we haven't opened. It will require a lot of time and energy to do a massive cleanout and it must be done soon! Also, Jake toys and artwork from school started to pile up everywhere! I constantly ask Phil to help me sort through it but he hasn't got a chance. Of course, he is waiting for me to help him with that..... not to mention Jake has build up an ARMY of clothes in his closet... It is unbelievable! I need to store away those clothes that he can't wear anymore, So much STUFF?!!!! It bugs the hell out of me so bad! Especially now that I have more energy to look around the house and actually get bothered from it. I don't like clutter, messy, and unorganized home. Oh.. another thing, all paperwork are sitting around waiting for me to sort through... ARG!!!! I managed to get some done last month cause Phil lost balanced and cannot keep up with it and he really doesn't know where everything is sorted cause I owned and kept things organized before. I feel so frustrated at times because things are building up and the longer we don't organize these things, the more it will collect and take even more time to go through it all! Aside from all the house stuff that is on our top list of to do, in about 1.5 weeks from now, FINALLY I can go in to remove my GI Tube!!! I cannot wait! This tube is in the way and I cannot sleep properly because every time I try to rotate from side to side in my bed, it is in the way. I also have hearing test, bloodtest, dental check-up and visit my oncologist in the coming weeks. Other than this, September is going to be a crazy busy month as well. I have my final MRI test and review with the doctors to check on my health status and to confirm if everything is gone!!! First week of September, I will be transitioning Jake to the new French daycare school that is in Markham. Also, September weekends are quickly filling up with kids birthdays and weddings... Not sure how many I can hit but definitely I want to try to go to as many as I can since I have missed out sooooo many already! Phil and I also want to plan 2 separate family and friends party at our home - perhaps at the end of September. I haven't seen my friends and many family members in AGES!!!! So much to do!!!! OMG.... I don't know if I should throw a happy or sad face on thinking about all of this!!!
Just breathe..... *sigh*. Given all of the above, I still need to prioritize RECOVERY as my #1focus. Need to start doing some extremely slow motion stretches, try to eat more and cut down on some ensure. I'm currently taking 3 bottles of ensure/day, my goal is to cut it down to 2 bottles by next month as long as I can start eating more. I slowly start to gain back my taste buds but again, my menu is very limited due to dry mouth. Aside from just the dry mouth, there are a lot of stuff that I need to ban off the list... food that are fried, too much oil, too much salt, preserved meat, seafood, beef, fast food, and also eating out. Hopefully, eating a full meal is not too far away in the future.
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